into the mystic

at about this time, I couldn’t figure out what the hell I wanted.  I was trapped in the hopeless world of “Supposed To.”  I am supposed to be getting a degree in something useful and supposed to be spending my time doing things that are supposed to get me a steady and financially sound career.

I thought I was supposed to be a doctor.

But three years ago, I couldn’t let the chaos and the insincerity of my actions and mindset go on any longer.  I felt myself slipping away into what others expected me to be.

So I sat down in my empty apartment having just moved in with my old roommate and wrote a physical list of things I knew about myself.  Things I loved and enjoyed, things I knew I was good at, things I always wanted to do.  Even really silly things, like how much I loved candles and flowers and making paper cranes in restaurants.  I added to it each day.  I went looked it over so many times.  I kept reminding myself that these were the things that made me who I am.  Not school.  Not test scores.  Not a big fancy job.

I never wanted fame and fortune.  I never really dreamed of having a big title with a lot of money.  I have no interest in those things.  And what’s funny is that a lot of people, my own parents included, think it’s strange that money isn’t my top priority in life.  (Although I thankfully have friends who get it.)

Today, I am reminded of how desperately in love I am with literature.  I love to read, and I’m happy that I get the chance to read for leisure now.  I want to read a lot and I want to read often.  There is nothing like finding a book or an author who expresses thoughts and feelings and ideas in the way that connects you.  And for that little bit of time where you’re lost in a book, you know that you’re not alone.  That this book touched others in a way that touched you and that someone else gets you. 

I won’t stop adding to that list.  I won’t ever forget it.  In times of chaos, it’s important to have something to hold on to. 

Jennifer Lawrence
Michelle Obama
Kate Middleton
Ellen Degeneres

I am going to openly state that I want to be a spectacular combination of all of them.

rifa:

hipsterinatardis:

Fun fact: Dustin Hoffman and Bob Hoskins decided secretly that they’d play Hook and Smee as a gay couple. When Spielberg, the director, found out, he was furious.

I just think it’s hilarious.

OH MY GOD

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lulz-time:

This post has been featured on a 1000notes.com blog.

And food.

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sinner-of-envy:

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Me as the leader of a group project..

The most accurate thing ever, oh my god.

Additional: 

A group project on Tumblr would know how to get shit done.

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My bag of fucks is beyond empty and non existent.

beautifulpicturesofhealthyfood:

Roasted grape, goat cheese + honey stuffed sweet potatoes…RECIPE

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